I am a bored person

1:19am: Oh my goodness, I had figured deadjournal would have deleted this thing after 3 years of absolutely no activity. I also hadn't imagined that I would ever grasp the concept of being coherent and using punctuation. Or at least that's how it seems when viewing past entries.

But Jesus Christ, its been a long time. A long, long time. Its interesting how I've had this and my livejournal about the same amount of time, yet this one happened to be completely neglected, and my livejournal...only moderately neglected.

8:28pm: Yes, I really do spit venom. Pay me money and I'll show you.
Its sad, in an attempt to make someone hate me so they'll leave me alone I managed to be: pretentious, whiny, insulting, sarcastic, loud, and use overly enthusiastic hand motions and they still wouldn't go away...and called me endearing. Seriously, I'm just hoping that the whole endearing crap was sarcasm, I don't think it was, but if its not i'll kill them. It will be a bloody and horrible mess.

*tear* I think next time i'll just shout out that I dislike them and want them to die drowning in their own blood. But I don't think they'd understand.

*sigh*

6:22pm: *death*

Taking care of my mom is a bitch. I feel bad for disliking it, but I have much higher respect for the people who take care of disabled people for a living. My mom's just in a wheelchair and can quasi-hobble to the bathroom if need be, but its still tough. Bah. Its much more exhausting than I though...I need sleep and I want to go home desperately, but my sister just squashed any hopes of going home by coming to drop off all of my clothes and such to my dad's house where we're staying until my mom is able to do a bit more than hobble, so for a week or two.

Damn people and not stopping at stop signs, if that person had done what he was supposed to, my mom and I wouldn't have gotten into a car accident and life would be going on as normal. But also if we had been going faster or if he had my mom probably wouldn't have made it and I probably would have gotten a hell of a lot more than a nasty bruise and a cut on my knee.

This new Taking Back Sunday song is crap.

8:40am: My mom and I went to develop a disposable camera I had, and I find it hilarious that on that camera I had these pictures in which my mom took of me looking slutty [we were bored, we had a camera and my mom was cleaning out her closet.] Now, not only are the slutty pictures on that camera, oh no. That camera also holds the pictures of my First Communion. Oh man, its great. One pictures there's me and mr. bishop-man, next picture is me with fishnets on. Hah. HAHA. Things seem way too amusing when you're sleep deprived and eating soggy trix.

I should have brought my AP History book to my dad's house, I could have spent this time catching up on work that i need to do instead of looking at my random journals and reloading every five minutes. Or downloading music and such things like that.

6:09pm: Girls don't play dungeons and dragons!

4:33pm: I miss rabidly posting on deadjournal, or really posting at all... The only people who REALLY keep me from deleting this stupid thing is Geno and T.O. mostly because they are two of the coolest people I have met indirectly through the internet.

I dont' know why I posted that, but I did. So yay. At least I posted.

6:59pm: LA kicked the ass. It's such an ugly city, though. Meh. So far the rest of vacation is sucking so hard it hurts. I think I'll go insane by the end of the week. Its only tuesday and I already want to go insane.

10:31am:

Seduced By A Hogwarts Proffessor (Preferably For The Girls, no Harry Potters please) by dezthewicked
Name:
Which Male Professor:	Proffessor Severus Snape
Where:	In His Chambers
What Pick-up Line Does He Use??	"Fancy a F*CK?"
How Does He Do It?	He shapeshifts...four legs are better than two, aren't they?
What Was it Like?	"Oh, you kinow...*wink...he's the Master"
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

that makes me giggle. ph34r my giggle.

Nervous, going to a birthday party for one of Rays friends and get to meet all of his super close non-school friends. I hate meeting new people, its so nerve racking. *twitch twitch*

Nette said that they're selling a Sirius Black shirt at HT which makes him look like Charles Manson, I think I'm going to have to go over there and see what it looks like. Yay.

4:29pm: I feel like repeatedly running head first into a really thick wall.

4:02pm: *sigh*

My mom told me yesterday that I had to bring up the fact that I want a boyfriend to my dad. Even though i've had one for 10 months it was time to bring it up to my dad. Meh. And so I did, he tells me flat out no. And now him me and my mom all have to talk about it in a civilized manner.

Goddammit!

Last time I listen to my mom about stuff like this. Now I need to figure out arguments as to why I want one, and make them decent and persuasive. I was all for never telling my dad until he found out on his own then not talking to him for a couple of months. Hey, its possible.

I'm tired and am feeling sickly, my mom doesn't get here until another half hour and i just want to sleep.

8:42am: I hate this, I feel fine, just my nose is stuffy, but no. I must stay home, or rather at my dad's house. I felt like crap yesterday, not today. But apparently I have a fever, I don't feel like I have a fever, I don't feel sick but I must stay home.

My orange juice is half frozen, tastes kinda good. I wish this weren't a school day at least then I would have some hope to talk to someone online, but alas I do not. I need something to occupy my mind...blerg

3:43pm: *pokes*

is anyone alive!?

No church class today, bleh. Its a boring class in which we do nothing, but I get out of the house with it...and Rosa,Ericka, Leanna(?), and Leanna's twin are nice and fun to talk to. Plus its fun making stupid comments to the people in my group.

So bored, very bored. Anyone else bored? My Sally bobble head broke ;_; her head no longer bobbles and has dropped down so it looks like she now has no neck. Stupid brother, jumping on my bed and making all my stuff fall off. My wolf snow globe almost broke, but it landed on my bed..but gives me a reason to re-organize the books on my bookshelf. And maybe destroy some of his stuff.

Yaaay, destruction!

My tummy hurts, I shall...find someone to talk to online or go play Disgaea!

6:42pm: "you've got this silly way of keeping me on the edge of my seat"
*whine* This weekend sucked. Why did it have to be 3 days long? Well, Saturday was alright as long as I kept busy. Helped my brother make a brownie-heart for his girlfriend.I 've been baking a lot lately. I think later on tonight I'm going to make chocolate chip cookies... I like baking and I like making presents so that was fun. That and my brother and I actually got along, mainly I think it's because he doesn't live here anymore.

But the rest of the weekend was boring and disappointing. Went almost nowhere except to look for a bed. Mine is just about to collapse. I think the only thing keeping it up is the mound of crap underneath it. My dad put it together, that's the reason it's broken, my dad breaks everything he touches. Well, my mom took me somewhere to go eat and the food was crap, and so I got dessert to make up for the crappy food (nowhere can fuck up a fudge brownie with ice cream) and wound up getting sick. ;___;

Other bad things ensued, I hate being cooped up in my house, I didn't even go to church class since I had gotten sick. And I was almost looking forward to class so I could get out of the house. On the plus side, my brother found my Taking Back Sunday cd. Yaaaay.

4:03pm: *sigh* I'm tired. I think when I get home i'm going to go to sleep. Am downloading a bunch of songs, mainly by Jeff Buckley, old Cursive stuff, and Rasputina. I should probably finish downloading "Tell All Your Friends" or the new Incubus stuff.

( the inconsistancies of my mood )

8:40pm: This sucks. My favorite blog shut down, her domain isn't up...this makes me saaaad. Other things make me sad, too. Bleh.

I'm tired, I think I'm going to go to sleep soon. Just check some online comics, maybe i'll talk to Nicole some.

God today was boring, and lunch made me sick. I'm going to go find someone to stalk and maybe someone will call me. Someone, anyone. call me for the love of god.

4:17pm: I so need to put up the track listings on all the Cds i've uploaded onto my computer. Funny, I have two Modest Mouse track 11's on my playlist, it's so confusing.

Today after school Josh, Ashley, and I went to Fig Garden, Gracie couldn't come because she had to go with her sister, so that was bad. other than that it was pretty good. It was funny/sad when we were eating our ice cream outside it decided to start raining, and our ice cream still decided to melt. *shakes head and sighs* Making Ashley feel uncomfortable in Whole Foods was fun, it was a payback for what she was doing in front of Coldstone's.

Just before I left Josh was pretending to use my cellphone and saying (very loudly) crazy things about diseases in the pubic regions and such, ah it was hilarious. He was saying one of them across the street from where my dad was standing, and I'm kinda glad my dad's pretty damn deaf since he despises his hearing aides so I'm almost sure he didn't hear what Josh was saying.

hehe.

6:58pm: I'm never online anymore. Damn me. Maybe more so soon though. Maybe I'll update later..

7:37pm: *yawn* wow, i'm sleepy. Finals are over, thank God! I should really check power school to see if some of my grades were put in. I'm scared as hell for my grade in Spanish, everything else is in the B/C range so that shouldn't be too bad. Today we ran the mile in PE for our final and he had us put our own time in the book so me and Kami cheated and changed our grade by a minute. Well, that minute was the difference between getting points and getting a zero (from 13 to 12...i mean come on, how can 13 be FAILING? Asthmatic kids, you know....) But, meh. Chemistry, well...I have an 89 in that class so it could change it either way, i'm not TOO worried about it. My parents are still gonna bitch at my grades for being mostly C's.

Okay, screw it. I need to know my grades or I will explode. You don't want an expolding girl on your hands, do you? Unlike a Prinny, I won't come back.

Really, why does powerschool's logo have to be so big, it's difficult to conceal the fact that i know my password if my parents see me on it. I suppose that's probably the idea, or they just have a really crappy webmaster. Aww fuck, I have a 69 in spanish. And my teacher's a bitch so she's probably going to not raise it. Only missed 3 problems on my History final, YES! I have an A- in the class now. And a B in English....o_O .2.5 gpa and here I was expecting a 2.2. Okay I promised myself a 3.0....but yay?

5:22pm: "crush me baby, i'm all ears"
I've noticed that I happen to use the same subjects repeatedly. But almost all of them are from songs, and how I love those songs.

My hands are cold, I hate having my hands cold. But I have mittens and it is damn impossible to type with mittens. I have my OJ Simpson gloves but they're a size too big and always mash the wrong buttons and i get angry and threaten to put them in the oven and cook them like i did with the rest of its body (they're leather) wow, thats mean. Don't hit me my vegitarian/animal rights friends.

I love this 'zine, the girl has the FFVIII soundtrack so she sends out the mp3s, it's so godly. Since a used imported version of the soundtrack costs 50 buck and i left my goddamn wallet with my PE clothes in my 3rd period class. *groan* It better be there tomorrow. Or else...well it's my fault so I can't be too angry.

I really have the urge to dance, but...ballroom dancing, wearing a poofy victorian dress in an actual ballroom. and twirl. I REALLY want to twirl. Whee this entry is so darn random. It makes me giggle

( and on and on and on )

12:55am: Happy New Year
I hope everyone had a good very beginning of the new year.

Spent new years eve having dinner with my parents and 2 half sisters. The entire thing wound up being a bitch-fest from everyone. The only time all of us can even hold more than a 3 word conversation. Spent the rest of it at my dad's house with my parents while my dad got drunk and we all watched The Twilight Zone.

Blah, I hope this isn't the way i'll spend the rest of the year. A sad year it would be, indeed. Ah, oh well... G'night.

PS: I know you won't get this for a while but Happy Slightly Belated Birthday Ashwise Gamgee of The Shire Rohan!

5:33pm: I'm so bored my skull is going to cave in. I need something to do. I need to have my mind be able to wonder about other things than the things it keeps circling.

I also need songs to download, most of you know my music taste so...whatever, really.

( have I posted this before? )

3:01pm: "and they laugh in a language i don't understand"
*sigh* I hate this. I haven't really talked to anyone all vacation. I really haven't talked to anyone for more than 10 minutes it seems. Talked to several people on Xmas Eve and that was about it. It's so boring and so lonely. Gracie and Ashley, for the past week I haven't really seen them online. ;_; I think I have REALLY bad timing.

*whines*

7:06pm: *yawn* I'm tired. Went to go see ROTK again today, tee hee. In the theater before the movie started I really wanted to shout "Let's have sex!" but I was with my sister, and that probably would have been taken wrongly. Meh, oh well.

Hope everyone had at least a semi-decent Christmas. Mine was okay, presents were nice, hate spending time with extended family, though. but that's all right. I'm tired and I have no idea what to write so I think I'm just going to wander off and finish reading my book.

I love Lynn Flewelling.

4:57pm: "anti-hero idol with a suicide excuse"
My sweatshirt smells funny, I mean the sleeves...jesus christ on a pogo stick! They haven't smelled this bad since the one time my nephew threw up on it. I THINK I washed it after that....yeah I did. Whew.

I'm bored. Bored, bored bored BORED!! I think I'm going to go find something to do. I have the Matrix, Mark let me borrow it...but I don't feel like watching it.

Gaby's threatening me...*sniffle*...anyway

This is probably the most disjointed update I've written for a long time. Go disjointedness! I think it has to do with the 4 cups of tea, 1 cup of hot cocoa and the can of pepsi. Maaaaaaybeee. Maybe not.

Gasp! Wait a minute...I keep forgetting, I still have David's Trigun, I think I should go watch that. Wow I've had his Trigun's since October or September, I can't remember. I really need to learn to give things back to people, or at least have them bug the hell out of me until I do. Meh, oh well. I want it to be Christmas already, I just want to skip Christmas Eve, though...I hate making tamales I don't even eat.

May go see LotR tomorrow, horrah! I need to ask my mom if it's okay, I also need to find a ride if she says so. I think I could bribe my brother to have him take me, either that or call my dad and have him pick me up. Unfortunately my parents are pissed at each other (it is holiday-time, so of course they hate each other) so I don't know if my mom would want me to have him pick me up. She tries to say when they're mad it doesn't affect anything that I have to do with the other. It's a lie, and i think she knows it, but I guess it's alright.

Laa, have I ever mentioned I HATE vacations? So boring. It hasn't even been a full day of vacation and I already want to go to school. *sigh*

ph34r my new icon! I need to lay off the caffine.

7:29pm:
Your phase is METAL. It is sometimes hard for you
to learn, but you have the capacity to maintain
your integrity in the face of hardships. You
can help shape others. You will do well in a
career that is very demanding, but that does
not necessarily involve lots of retraining,
such as a lawyer, soldier or businessman. You
are good at overcoming problems that have taken
on a life of their own. You tend to produce
situations that are more flexible and
adaptable.


Which one of the Five Phases of Chinese cosmology are you correlated with?
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You are the ever-popular half-mask! You are
charming, suave, creative and romantic. You are
unique, different and bring about a touch of
sophistication, and you bring Erik and aura of
class. Everyone loves you. Absolutely everyone,
except, perhaps, a certain finicky opera
singer, but you can take care of that. :)


Which Phantom Mask Are You?
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I love Phantom, I wish I could see it. I was supposed to, in Sacramento....I forget why I couldn't go....*sigh*


I wish I could make everyone happy. ;_;